Is it me or you?

Sometimes I wait for love,
But you never turned back.

Sometimes I give you love,
But you dint speak my language.

Sometimes I tried to be myself,
But you felt I was not right.

Sometimes I wait for you to approve,
But you just accept it.

Sometimes you have taken away what I deserved,
But you never cared for its significance.

Who is it?
Is it me or you?

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TAKING ON DEATH:

You might wonder at this statement. This has become a part of everyday life. People have become gallant warriors who can’t be paralleled by any of the emperors of the past. Still perplexed???

It is about the reckless driving of almost every citizen here. I was on my way back home after a tiresome shopping at T Nagar. I was a passenger of a share-auto who was only money minded and a racer in fact.  People are preoccupied while driving, thinking about their targets to be achieved at workplace. They show their force, and speediness while driving. People always start at the neck of the moment, forgetting their head wear most of the times.

I think they must be a victim of selective memory loss. They must have learnt about the traffic rules and would have obeyed it to the fullest to acquire the license. But how come they ignore the red lights at the signal to speed away. I wonder what would be the need for such an urgency risking their lives and others at the road??  The most atrocious behavior was noticed by me during the travel. At the four way junction, the red light had just glowed leaving way for the others from the left to cross. A few vehicles passed the line even after the red’s glow. In order to stop them the police man interfered with a red light in his hand. Still only the right most vehicles stopped for the policeman’s order. My auto driver sped the previous vehicles by the left side. Two things are to be noted here: first is the disobedience of the police’s order and second: a vehicle is not allowed to overtake by left side. Overtaking from behind by right hand side is only allowed in our country as vehicles are right driven. The most pathetic situation was that of the officer’s. He was helpless as he was disobeyed and he would be the one responsible for any mishap at the specific junction. Why is this urge for a rash and foolhardy drive?

These racing drives are to be practiced on well laid and smooth maintained roads, to develop such capability and not in 40ft roads congested with parking and pedestrians walking on the roads due to the lack of a pedestal.  People are acting too smart to cross the divider by jumping across it, physically, with cycles and bikes, felling lazy to come around a certain distance.  The roads are being dug by various departments like EB, PWD, to carry on their work. They finish their work and wind up without correcting the pits made by them and just patching them with cheapest elements that dissolve with a very short rain.

As it is said usually, “the safety while travelling is not in our hands but also the by passers”. At this situation it won’t work out. People should be quick enough to overcome any harm that may occur at the time of travelling. As most of the pedestrians are not senior citizens, they can cope up with the promptness and alacrity to survive. But it is really miserable for the senior citizens who suffer because of these reckless drivers. People think it is thrill to break the rule. But not in this case. Even though the road is empty, people should obey the signals at the junction and fell proud about their act. The traffic in metropolitans is ever increasing due to the incoming population who come here for survival. Even though government lays as many fly over’s to control and regulate the traffic, mere self discipline of obeying the traffic rules alone can help out this situation. Please obey the traffic rules and advise your dear ones. Let us live this life to the fullest and need not fight against death just to travel from one place to another. “JAI HIND”.

MEIN EISA KYON?

I was a GRE aspirant in my college days wanting to start a new phase of my life at a new destination. I was encouraged to study well, aim for it and reach it. It all started very well. I was eagerly waiting for my admit. I got admits from two universities out of five I had applied for. I was very happy, stepping on to my dream chair, thinking about the steps I had to take to adapt myself at a new place. But the came financial problem as a great stumbling block. This is no surprise for any MS aspirant. But my gender played a role to hold me back to my roots. I being the only child for retired parents, from a middle class conservative family, moving abroad was a matter of fear, anxiety, and a Himalayan task. Being immature I tried to convince my parents to apply a loan, a huge amount as a necessity. As I was neither a topper nor an achiever I could not het a waiver or financial aid. Parents will always want their kids to be safe and stay happy without undergoing heavy distress in life. That too me being the only child and the large separation of four years during my under graduation turned out to be a cause for the check they laid for my graduation in a foreign land. I was not tenacious to extract my needs by hurting my creators. Their age and financial instability was pressurizing them to search for my groom. I was made to abandon my dreams in order to satisfy my parents at least by my presence.

This was the position which asked me so many questions like, y dint I maintain an excellent academic record? Y was I born a girl? Y did I burden my parents with such a financial constraint?

I managed to come out of this disappointment and look for job. Though I was offered a job through campus placements, the financial down trend had hit the IT firms badly especially the one which I got placed. I hunted for a job to come out this boredom and took up one as a tele-marketing executive. It dint pay me well, yet I enjoyed the work place. My nurturers were not happy with my job. I too found the situation to be an under-employment for myself. So I came out trying for other options.

Enjoyed with my parents by visiting my relatives place, attending family functions, etc... But my friends were being called join from their respective firm. This created agony in my mind and I started another business of my own of making fashion jewelry. I started getting orders from my colony inmates. I felt excited about it and enjoyed my work. But this too dint work out for long as I had to find new customers for the business to go on. This was also seemed to be a low-grade job for my parents.

I am still in search of the right place for me that would satisfy my parents, to help me repay my loan. Is it all possible? Or is my life going to change upside down by entering a family side? God alone Knows. When is it all going to happen?  Where is my fighting spirit? Why am I so submissive by just accepting the stuffs happening to me? Is it because of the over-protection? But I think I have been vested with a good amount of inner strength to undergo these troublesome situations. Thank you god for having me sustains these hardships. But as everyone would say, there must e something better in store for me. The happiness I attain through this is the empty state of mind after pouring out my agony in this form and to stay smiling forever. Why am I like this?

 Am yet to discover my true self!!